Friday, November 18, 2005

growing wit the flow

I am a very patient woman. Oh hell who am I kidding, I am not patient at all.
It is all I can do not to run screaming into the street throwing a childlike temper tantrum that my Modblog is down again, and has been all week. I know I have to suck it up and deal with it at some point, but it is so incredibly difficult to accept the possibility that MB won’t be back. I am trying to be optimistic, as I am every time this happens, but coping with it is increasingly difficult. I miss my blog and I miss the interaction with the people on there. I did join Modblog Addicts as did many of my MB cohorts. I wonder if there is another blogging community with such a close knit (codependent?) bunch.
There is a distinct possibility we all rely too heavily on this internet life, there is also the reality that I don’t give a flying fuck, I like these people and I want them to be part of my life, just as I want to be a part of theirs.
I care about what they are doing and I can’t wait to share my latest news with them.

This is an exercise in patience for me, my patience is very flabby and out of shape, it needs a lot of exercise. I just hope it is not an exercise in futility as well…my futility is ripped.

I don’t blame Gorman, I think he is doing the best he can with what help and resources he has. I wouldn’t want to be in his shoes for anything. I do however support him. For two years he has given me a place to share my voice and I will always appreciate that, whether the service returns or not. I have met some incredible people who will remain in my life no matter where or even if I blog. I am grateful for that.

I hear a lot of griping that we got our layouts and galleries back for a day and then the whole thing went down and how could they do this to us etc. There is no conspiracy here. This is not a case of The Gorman giveth and The Gorman taketh away. I am certain he is no happier about this than we are and he’ll have a shitstorm of complaints to deal with when we do go live again…if we go live again.

Yes it would be nice to have advance notice of downtime, but perhaps they don’t always know when that will be. And really, what if we did know ahead of time that it would be down…what would we do differently?
I also hear bitching that they leave no notice as to when the service will return.
Perhaps they don’t know that either.

I am not computerly inclined, I know nothing of servers or code. I don’t know what it takes to make these sites run efficiently, but I am sure it’s complicated and they are making every effort. I do believe there is no great conspiracy, they are not withholding.

I am not generally good with change. I like comfort and security. I think that is why I am having some trouble settling in here. My life is shaking up big at the moment; changes are coming fast and wild. It is time for me to learn to embrace them.



At 9:37 a.m., Blogger Phil said...

I'm not totally computer nerdish, but since I do have to work with internet technology, I will only say this.

When Gorman and whoever else at FileFront decided to bring on new hardware, they should have tested it from top to bottom before they moved us over to it. It's easier to fix problems before you launch than to try and patch them on the fly.

Of course it's a moot point now, snice I'll be staying over here at Blogger most likely.

At 10:30 a.m., Blogger valkyrieshoes said...

yeah i'm having withdrawal issues, too. after this last bucnh of downtime, i'm considering just keep my other blog as my main blog. but i miss all my MB friends! :(

At 11:05 a.m., Blogger The Moomin said...

finally a post! i needed my daily dosage of Ben :)

you said it, ain't no place like MB. I have a blog here, but.. it's just not home. I pray for MB to return to its former glory, yet I am deeply annoyed by this whole thing.

I also met some incredible people there (including you). I refuse to lose touch with them because of that. I dont care if people think I attach to much weight to it. That's how I feel.

It is natural to be afraid of changes. You are a very smart person, you'll know what to do. *hug*

At 2:38 p.m., Blogger Cyn said...

i do write off a lot to G's youth and lack of social skills..hey, most computer types just do not have much in that department. still..the situation was not handled professionally or to that end it is on G's back. if i were G..i'd not be listing this on my resume w/out a hella lotta caveats. as for MB coming back or not..truly only time will tell. as for meeting people i'd never had the opportunity to do so...LIKE YOU! oh hell yeah i'm grateful. and it then becomes up to each of us to keep in touch. hence the forum. and there is always gmail. (*hint* and as for you, young lady who is not only an excellent writer but an avid blogger with AN EQUALLY AVID AUDIENCE...come on..keep writing, please? we all need our bent fix. k?

At 6:36 p.m., Blogger XTAP59 said...

First, Modblog will return. In what capacity is the real tricky question. We will get an explanation, and a pledge that they will do their best not to let it happen again.
Well, Today is my one year anniversary at Modblog and I cannot blog there. St. Patricks day as well. April Fools day as well, and many other special days I value.

Gorman has a nice looking design in Modblog. Its just not very functionable. He's trying to run with the big dogs, (Blogger, MSN spaces, MySpace, Word Press, Live Journal, blah blah blah) but he doesn't have the resources nor the manpower to do so.

If you remember Deskmod, you know that Gorman ran out of resources and it was abandoned. From what I'm gathering, (I wasn't there at that time) the bandwidth was to extreme. With Modblog, I believe the gallery is and templates are a very heavy load of bandwidth. I would bet that most moded templates have in excess of 100kb for size. 75,000 members at 100kb per page, times thousands and thousands of page views equates to a very large bandwidth usage. Then throw in the unlimited picture usage and storage and you have an 800 pound gorilla on your back.

I hope that before Gorman brings modblog back, he fixes the bugs, stabilizes the servers, and adds a tech head or two to upkeep the service. Maybe then I would come back full time, but till then, I will stay at blogger, which BTW I am really getting to like, finding out I can do anything with it, and the look and feel is pretty much what i had at Mosblog.

I'll still be lurking arounf modblog at my friends blogs, and will use modblog as a links whore as I did with blogger until it returns.

At 7:35 a.m., Blogger Good Hands said...

Jeez, Ben you said/wrote it. Patience is not a virture.

I am not here or there today. Family is coming over on Thursday and staying for a few days AND I've got a lot of house to prepare for the big USA Thanksgiving.

Actually my house cleaning lady is coming today to do the cleaning but I still have a lot of work to do this weekend.

Isn't it interesting how we all have become so dependent on one place with all its virtues and not ... but we somehow learn to be flexible and make our transition in cyberspace and still be present with each other. Hooray!

At 8:07 a.m., Blogger Neener said...

dude. i love that you have a place to write. but i am so with you. i can't feel the vibe here like i do at MB. i miss everyone and am glad to see MB'ers resurfacing here...

But i'm not with my buds P and P...i no likey and will go back and back if it comes back up.

xxoo, TS

At 10:58 a.m., Blogger Libertine said...

You know, I've been thinking, that even if Gorman eventually brings back MB, it will be too late by the time this happens. People will have moved on, gotten settled in new blogging homes.

It's like the old saying goes, "You can't go home again."

If MB is to survive as we knew it, he'd better get it done pretty damned soon.

At 11:12 a.m., Blogger ben said...

This place still does not feel like home to me and I doubt it ever will.
There was a homeyness to MB that is just not here.
Over there we were a community, this place feels very sterile and we are separated and scattered.
I will go back to MB, whenever it comes back in whatever incarnation it takes. I can live without a gallery and I could even deal with the orange.

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